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[May. 4th, 2005|10:25 pm] |
heh, LOW AND BEHOLD AN UPDATE!
don't know, don't ask, i really have no clue
random things about me right now,
Osami's has officially sold, it will be an intirely different resturaunt in about a month or so
got a job offer from the same place Mathias works at, if i get the job then woot, if not, then meh
heard they will only be hiring about 3 people, and there were about eight at the testing i took, yes, i said testing, i felt like i was taking the TAAS all over again, they had a scantron and everything, it was creepy
seen some people i haven't seen in a long time, made me happy, mis quite a few people i haven't seen, some people i will never see again, which is actually a good thing, as deppressing as it all is, but still a good thing,
god i'm tired,
things seem very pointless recently
got my own apartment for those of you who don't know, have a squatter here as well, thats pissin me off, but doing it for the right reasons, helping a guy out, even though i'm close to strangling him every once in a while...very once in a while..... every other five minutes.... maybe more, dunno, but hes got about a week to get out so thats good.
meh, also got a cell phone, only a phew people know the number though as its technically supposed to be for emergencies and all that jaz.
things are interesting and glorious, and yet deppressing and dull, dunno if that makes sense, guess i'm still doing the emotional reeling and all that, but things are finalized now, for good or ill, blah, what to say, there are things i would love to say but i need to let it all go, so i won't
whatever
laters-
Mikie, Jesus, Stabbity, Me |
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[Mar. 5th, 2005|12:22 am] |
got blown up today, mildly entertaining, have to have my beard shaved off, i no longer have eyelashes on my right eye, my eyebrow is partially missing, and the top right corner of my hair is slightly gone. Fun.
got a new manager today, penalized for doing my job, then told i'm not doing enough, got bitched at for getting blown up, told i need to do more work, and yet less, got ordered by a man named T-bone, thats my manager, he hasn't given us a real name and refuses to do so, and demands respect from all the employees, has promised the owner of my store more buisness in three months, even though he has been at or quant little family store for about10-12 hours, he has also threatened to cut my tips in half if i'm late for any un-acceptable reason. I still don't have my car, its been dead for almost two months now, its done apparently but i have to go pick it up. paying rent on an appartment i don't live at yet, which smells like curry and has horrible problem with "water bugs"(roaches). All in all an interesting day.
On the up side, i still have hair on the left side of my face, my car is finished being repaird, my parents are being loving and supportive of me moving into my own place, which is mildly surprising, getting blown up is actually kind of entertaining, theres this whole rush of adrenaline that wakes you up and makes you alert for the next god only knows how long.
On a side note: or help at work is opinionated, and incompetent.
i know this is an anoying bitch session, but am i in the wrong when i think i should be irritated by these things?
p.p.s.i've been getting love letters, and i don't know how to feel, there from someone i should probably not give the time of day, but i feel i still love this person, and some part of me wishes to have the relationship work out, but another, wants to know, WTF are you thinking?, and i don't know how to respond, i really don't, i'm all dizzy and such, i think i'm going to go read and then try to get some sleep.
btw, did i mention i got blown up? |
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[Feb. 16th, 2005|03:08 am] |
well lets see,
to start, i'm an uncle now, hes a healthy eight pound one ounce healthy boy, incidently i'm also the godfather, thats nifty
my car is dead, so no phone and no car, stuck at the apartment, Bro and sis are at the hospital, and will be for awhile yet, understandably so,
salt on open wounds, if you don't know what that is reffering to don't worry about it
as a whole life sucks,
so in the grand scheme of things is going about as average as everyone elses life in this world,
i fucking hate this place sometimes
i really do
falling, falling,
all the world turns to gray
falling, falling,
the ashes cover the ground
falling, falling,
soon the world will be black
and slowly by slowly,
i will watch this world burn.
sorry random poetic stint, not good at it, but hey, gets the feelings accross
i'll love you forever,
i'll like you for always,
as long as i'm living,
my baby you'll be,
again if you don't know what this is pertaining to, don't ask, an old poem from an old book,
salt on open wounds
have i said recently i really hate holidays?
if not, then,
i really, REALLY, fucking, hate holidays
cold black oblivion is calling, the old rest, that dark place where nothing matters, and nothing hurts, nothing pleases, nothing soothes, nothing is everything, and yet nothing is nothing, like all that is there, slowly by slowly my soul yearns to return, back to the place where i can't be hurt, back to the place where, there was nothing to care about, and nothing to care about me, and always by always, the rest eludes to the place just out of reach, but never out of sight, to the taunting madness that is life and exsistence, where nothing is nothing, and pain is everything, that which gives life its meaning, that which gives values to the things that bring comfort, but that everything is still based on pain, a parody of a happy life, a parody of a happy exsistence, a parody of that which is bliss, where eventually the parody fades and your left the real joke, the creul joke, life is exactly what you make of it, a parody of self willed exsistence, and the persuit of what you think will make you happy, untill it turns to ashes in your hands, and ashes in you heart, and ashes in you mouth, untill everything is grey, and slowly by slowly, everything fades to black. |
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[Dec. 19th, 2004|07:36 pm] |
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i have no more hair, it was a personal move, if you don't know the reasons, ask me in person, but please, don't ask stupid questions, and yes, there really are stupid questions. |
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[Dec. 7th, 2004|08:14 pm] |
hey my new aim name is HollowBlackroseL
i'm on when i'm at home sometimes,
just leave it running, if you see it, go ahead and IM because if it is on, i'm around somewhere |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2004|04:26 pm] |
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"the whole worlds a stage"
world = stage
stage = wood
gasoline + Match = fire
fire + wood = burn
gasoline + Match + stage = burn
gasoline + Match + world = burn
i see a correllation here, i think i will pursue it with a much higher degree of desire.
I really fucking hate the world that spawns shit and calls them people, for thats all alot of people are is shit, its just when the world realizes who they are, and that they really are shit, i want to be around to see it when the world starts treating them like shit |
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[Nov. 2nd, 2004|08:08 pm] |
I'm sorry if i've been a dick over the last few months.
I appologize, i've been emotionally fucked up, and its not really curing itself, and i feel i have taken it out on some people, and neglected others.
I need peoples IM's need to rebuild my list, account got wiped was away for so long.
Post if you care to. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2004|08:21 pm] |
Hey, this is me saying i'm still alive, so those of you that have been worring about me, i fine for the most part, my life is rather stressfull right now, and only promises to be more so, i love you all, and i read through some of your most recent posts, and seems like you guys are fine, which i'm glad to hear, take care everyone, i don't know what is going to happen, all i know is that i care for you all, even if were not near each other, take care everyone.
-Michael |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2004|09:03 am] |
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AND GOD SAID "heheh, BOOM" |
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[May. 28th, 2004|01:28 pm] |
I'm sorry to everyone who has wanted to hang out recently and has not been able to with me. for whatever reason, i haven't felt like physically talking, not that i don't feel like communicating, i just haven't wanted to talk, does this make sense? im not avoiding people, im not even trying to be reclusive, i don't really understand myself right now, i do know im changing, a little bit at a time, i think im trying to become more dependable, more self assertive, and less of an ass(if you don't know, then don't worry bout it) to people that don't deserve it. I'm trying to get my life back in order and find out why i feel the way i do.
If any of you have read any of my rants to people, or just plain know me, then you know i'm big on knowing reasons of why, or why not. And i have realized that i don't know my own reasoning behind my actions, and it is not for a lack of wanting, but a lack of understanding, to me, knowing something instinctually, of feeling something instuctually, makes sense, but when i try to put it into words, i find it difficult, there have been things going on, that i have been wanting to talk about to certain people, and before i can do that i need to be able to discuss it with myself, i've been trying to do that, its not for a lack of caring or loss of interest that i haven't been hanging out with people, its just im trying not to foust off my shitty feelings on people. Yes i know some of you don't mind, but thats the thing, i love you people and i know that sometimes you have your own shit to deal with, and i try to help, and i know that some of you, if not all of you try to help me, and i trully appreciate it, i really trully do, such as zach, you always try to take me around and pick up my mood, thank you, you always are able to make me smile, and im always amazed at your endless luck, as well as josh, you always try to lend a caring shoulder, and i know your trying to change some of your ways as well, and i admire that, and i wish you luck with it. ALL of you have helped me in my life i can name of few that have gone out of there ways to do so, and believe me im appreciative, and this is my way of saying, "Thank you" all of you thank you, for your patience, your careing, everything.
I love being with all of you, like right now, i want to hang out with everyone, and i mean everyone, i wish to hang out with josh, and zach, and jason, and jen, and rachel, and kiara, and ray, and meaghan, and kala, and my holy god with holli, with everyone, and i truly mean everyone.
im just being a moody ass, and im trying not to be, dunno, if anyone wants to get together i would love to, would love to have everyone run out to the store and hang out. but, meh, whatever happens.
love you all Michael |
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[May. 28th, 2004|11:41 am] |
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. What is your favorite memory of me?
16. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you? |
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[May. 18th, 2004|11:55 am] |
Got registered for classes today, going back to TCC.
If i screw up on this, my father wants me to go to, Howard Payne University, southern babtist capital of the feakin world.
YOU CAN MAJOR IN BIBLE there, my sweet holy me.
yeah, can't you just see little ol'Zen-like me going there?
mahahahahahaha!!!
i destroy it in weeks, have every converted to mikeism in record time, FOR I AM THE JESUS, and according to certain thoughts im god too.
so yeah, not a chance in the flaming place beneath my feet am i going there.
oh and jason didn't see that you tried to get back to me, what name is house regestered under your parents last name?
so i can see if it shows up on caller id next time, cause i don't anwser lest i know the name
later everyone |
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[May. 16th, 2004|04:25 pm] |
New things:
One:I think my parents found the house they want to move to. Relax its three minutes from where i am now.
Two:I get to go back to school and try to straighten my shit out.
Yay, I finally get to get something accomplished, yes i know its my fault for not doing it in the first place, meh, least im doing it now :p.
Three:Sorry for not hanging out with either zach or jason, but no worries, i haven't hung out with anyone.
Four:I'm an emotional Yo-Yo.
Five:I AM the Burger King!!
Six:I have a Holli, and our relationship isn't FUBAR.(it was headed that way for a while, but it seams a little better now)
(not so new things)
Seven:I need money.
Eight:I need a job for said money.
Nine:I need to buy pointless things, thus making the need for money to be Imperative, and thus, the need for a job is Imperative.
Ten:my moods have shifted three times in the course of writing this thing.(emtional Yo-Yo)
Eleven:MAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[May. 7th, 2004|02:21 pm] |
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I AM THREE STEPS CLOSER
MA-HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( Read more... ) |
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[May. 7th, 2004|01:18 pm] |
I have this really strong urge to go to the store.
Is anyone headed out that way this weekend?
If so Lemme know, I would love to tag along, if thats cool just.
:) |
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[May. 7th, 2004|09:17 am] |
Saw something creepy when i woke up this morning.
Theres a picture of Bush and his wife on my fridge that wasn't there yesterday.
Its addressed specifically to my mother, and i believe the family didn't look at that too long, what i did look at, is the fact that it was actually SIGNED by the first lady. I'm not talking about signed the faxed, actually signed.
I'm scared, very, very scared.
Question:How does one get pictures on live journal? Such as in the post, would like to know the syntax.
p.s. no im not gonna show the bush pic, something else intirely, some of you will love this though :) |
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